About

I am a girl in my 30’s, just broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years. Most people can’t believe it, since we were inseparable for that time. 4 years and a house, and huge projects and many travels together

But we were never IN LOVE. Now that she’s gone, I miss her every minute. And for the millionth time I wonder if LOVE is all it’s rumored to be, and if it’s really all that important. I love M. I’m just not IN LOVE. So fucking what, right

But then I think about all the nights I lay there wishing she could just “get me” Or the times I wished she could stop doing some annoying thing, or the times I wished our sex life was at least good.

I guess I’m just really confused. She’s gone though, so this is my blog about getting used to being alone.

And getting used to the idea that I could actually find someone better, which is ridiculous- I’ll never find anyone better, just different. Maybe this is also a blog about how I’m going to try to get what I want and if and when I do, how I learn to appreciate it.

Oh yeah- this blog will also have some unfiltered junk about my family. The minute M left with her Uhaul (insert stupid lesbian joke here, go ahead….) The minute she left, I hopped on a plane to go on a road trip with my Mother and Sister. Big mistake. Rants that I would never broadcast publicly in any way will be here. Skip these if they’re too annoying.